HELP! Everyone reading my blog knows the difficulties I’ve been going through lately. I’ve spoken about Blogger Burn Out and the general stress I’ve been under which has made it hard for me to enjoy blogging at the moment. I’ve had a lot of helpful advice including advice that I can let people know I can’t review their books as I’m super overwhelmed. Well, I might take that advice, at least with some books and authors, given some recent health problems that are getting worse rather than better due to the stress. I’m not obligated to review a book, especially electronic ones which cost nothing to send out. However I need some advice about a few physical books I was sent some time ago.
A lot of book reviewers have stated on their review policy that they won’t review a book if they don’t enjoy it, even if it’s a physical one. Well, I never put that on my submissions page, I never thought to put it but now I wish I had! I was sent a few physical books, not many but a handful. A few of them I’m happy to read, but some of the books I’m struggling with. They are books I’ve tried to read again and again and I just can’t get into them. To read them now is definitely a chore and no longer a pleasure and I’m so disengaged that I forget what I’ve just read when turning to the next page.
I know I can’t read these books anymore, maybe one day a long time away, but the stress of feeling obligated to review them is stopping me from being able to read pretty much anything else 😥 . I would offer to send them back but they were all sent from the US and it’s far too big a cost of postage for me to return them right now. On top of that I did say before that I’ve been suffering some stress related symptoms… I’d really rather not say what exactly my symptoms are but my doctor’s advice is to just stop all reviewing if it’s making me this stressed as it’s pretty serious at this point. My own problem is that I feel a sort of ‘guilt’ for having these books which did cost the authors in postage costs and it’s this ‘guilt’ which leads to incredible stress and without going into detail, I’m basically making myself dangerously ill.
I can’t review them now, or possibly ever. This has happened before with a publisher and they just said nevermind. But I’m not sure if the same applies to authors. 😦
What do I do?
EDIT: Forgot to add that it’s not all book reviewing that’s stressing me out, well sort of, but the feeling of obligation to certain books I no longer can review is what’s making me super ill and ruining any future reviewing 😦